wrote a song about it

Best girlfriend ever?

2006-12-06T04:42:37Z

Molly bought me an ice cream sandwich tonight. Best girlfriend ever? I think so!

You know you want to think you know me.

2006-12-03T21:19:27Z

Speak your mind even if your voice trembles.

2006-09-27T04:31:18Z

I am a piece of shit. I lack the courage to stand up for my convictions. I lack the courage to stand up for my loved ones. I am a coward. I am too afraid to change it. I have no excuse.

Roomsweeper

2006-08-19T17:43:33Z

We are gonna blow you away.

what is this mollers shit?!

2006-06-22T02:59:15Z

Since when did everyone start calling my girlfriend Mollers? Whatever. I hung out with an old friend today and it was badass. We played basketball. I really hope we keep hanging out a lot. in other news, i hurt my knee playing bookstore soccer. that's like normal soccer except 2 on 2 in the middle of the aisle with "cattle ropes' as goal posts. it was awesome except for the fact that my team lost and all i have to show for it is a welt on my knee. i knew diving like that was a bad idea. oh well. talk to you all you livejournal suckers later. I am going to cheat on Molly with "Jim" tomorrow morning at about 5 am.

I love molly

2006-06-18T18:42:17Z

Sometimes I wish I had more to say. I am the type that could talk for hours; days maybe without saying anything. I wish I could reach out. I am like every other pathetic piece of shit out there. I am just dying to be comfortable in my own skin. But I know, now, that that kind of thing doesn't really happen. I can't shake the notion that things only get worse from here. I know I am not alone and that everyone goes through this (so save those fucking comments please. they are most certainly useless.) No offense, but the cookie-cutter shit pisses everyone off. Come to think of it, I don't know why any of us try it in the first place. Perhaps it is a momentary lapse of concentration. An "I don't really care" moment in which we forget to even disguise the fake attempts to comfort the our loved ones. I don't know how to say what I think without sounding like a pathetic, whiny, "emo brat." Oh well. As much as it pisses me off, I think it will be good for me to say something all the way through without doubting it, or recanting. I rarely do that. I hate this fucking website. Every time I whine to this god damned computer screen I realize how immeasurably pathetic this whole life thing is. I wish I had some clever metaphor to describe it, but it is so fucking lackluster that anything I could say would most certainly be forced. Wow thats some Existentialist shit right there. Chris Camus. No, that doesn't work very well does it? I am going to stop now because this is getting progressively harder and harder to read. Honestly, I would be surprised if anyone even made this far. If you have, JUST STOP. You've already wasted enough of your time, I can guarantee that it only gets worse from here. Wow I am repeating myself now. Alright, I am done. Whew. Oh yeah, I LOVE MOLLY.

inspiration

2006-06-16T03:11:37Z

I saw Buddy Guy play at the CPA tonight. It was the most amazing show that I have ever seen. His energy, playing, and singing were incredible. He came out into the audience with his wireless setup and ran around like a maniac. He invited a kid up on stage to play with him. It was fucking incredible. Buddy Guy is my hero.

shit dawg

2006-06-13T01:54:58Z

I am sick of being such a miserable fuck. I am exercising a lot, which should make me feel better, but it isn't for some reason. I am just going to try to not be a whiny cunt. I really want to start hanging out with some of my old friends. I never should have lost touch with those dudes. Oh well, um, hey if anybody wants to play a giant game of ultimate frisbee I would be much obliged. Let me know or something.

wish you were here

2006-06-03T04:25:37Z

Damn!! You guys. You are missing out. Ha Ha!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!1

I am going down (on your mom?)

2006-05-20T03:04:36Z

So here's our happy ending,
splattered on the fucking wall.
They may never find our bodies,
like they never heard our calls.

But who am I to say this is how it ends?
We did this ... together.

I have nothing to offer. I am falling deeper and deeper into this hole, and the longer I go the harder it all gets. I hate myself, and I don't really care about much of anything. It all sounds so fucking contrived and selfish. You all can think whatever the fuck you want. I don't know what to say.

Problems

2006-05-18T01:58:08Z

So I have been having a lot of problems lately. Girlfriend problems, life problems... It all sucks a lot. I don't really feel alive. Oh yeah, and I suck at being a boyfriend. Fuck it all, man. This life is fucking miserable. All around shitty. I do not even feel like thinking about it anymore, let alone posting it online for everyone to see. But I will post it anyways, because Molly was mad that I never posted anything.

fudge

2006-05-07T03:23:16Z

I hate absolutley everything about life.

Look Out World!

2006-02-12T07:00:22Z

You may not be ready for THE BAD TOUCH UNCLES just yet. You better get ready!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

I FEEL FAT

2006-02-02T02:44:03Z

GO DUMPSTER BALLS!

jugzdaddy @ 2006-01-19T22:19:00

2006-01-20T03:41:51Z

I fucking hate everything. I just thought the world should know. That Osama is one bad mamma-jamma. He is all, "Vietnam this, we screwed the Soviet Union that." That dude is full of it. I mean I am sure our president sucks, but history has taught us that the whole war thing sucks bull's balls. Besides, he totally had our help when he ruined the reds. We have been through Vietnam, and if this really is anything like that, we will withdraw and eventually be alright. But then again, if it isn't, and we "stay the course," then we can only wait and see. But if that fag feels like he has to try trick us with his bullshit-psychotic-despot-mind-rape then he can choke and die on his ugly ass beard. All patriotism and religious radicalism aside, everybody needs to just shut the fuck up! Alright, i know that sounds naive, and you can take it for what its worth, but my head is spinning with this bullshit.

okay okay, i know that that sounds bad, but i just want to burst and let all the stupidity that the world has force-fed me out in one giant, slimy, sticky, stupid, explosion. "FUCK" is what I would hypothetically scream if I were to hypothetically explode and release all the shit. but i know that just can't happen, AND whats worse is that I know how obnoxious this whole rant sounds. that pisses me off even more. i watch all these fucking people say stuff like this and i can't help but think about how obnoxious they sound. only now, i am the one that sounds like an obnoxious prick. Boo hoo.

i don't know whether to feel sorry for myself or to just hate myself for sounding like an ass.

aye what a conundrum. fuck fuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuckfuck. censor that, bitch!

How much of our lives do we waste by whining?

2006-01-07T23:05:25Z

Fucking Hell. Life is some straight up bull-jive right now. Working a lot - still poor, about to start school - fuck school, and then a bunch of other personal shit that I just cannot seem to fix. What the fuck. I mean, I know life is supposed to suck most of the time, but let's have a little bit of fun every once in a while. Is that too much to ask? Additionally, I need some fucking friends, but, as it turns out, I am a bastard-of-a-person. Boo-(expletive deleted)-hoo, right? One thing is certain. I need to fix my life. I should probably try fixing my girlfriend's computer too.

jugzdaddy @ 2005-12-12T20:14:00

2005-12-13T04:29:59Z

After a much needed hiatus, I am back, if only for a night. I have finished my final exams already and I am now getting acquainted with the cheap-ass bottle of canadian whiskey in my fridge. If only I could harness the power of my drunkenness to write something brilliant, something inspirational. I fear, however, that I cannot. In fact, I think I just wasted the past couple of minutes doing this. Ooh ouch. Well there has to be something to cover. A recent survey suggests that... Man, I don't know shit about any recent surveys. I know they are fucking meaningless statistical interpretations of bullshit facts that no one cares about. I was thinking the other day... and then I got tired and gave up. Yow! I will be here all week! Man. This shit sucks. I am essentially talking to myself; only the whole fucking world can read it. Its like a massage chair. NO IT IS NOT!!!! Ha! God Damn it, I am good. Seriously though, I do birthday parties and bachelorette parties too. FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK FUCK. Freedom of speech is the bomb. The Hydrogen Bomb, that is. God, I give up. I hate this fucking website. See you in another couple of months, I guess.

jugzdaddy @ 2005-10-20T22:40:00

2005-10-21T02:42:40Z

Well as you all could have predicted, I have given up on SPAM before the uh... Revolution or whatever the hell I was blabbering about. I am tired. Smoke on the water, Cat Scratch Fever.

jugzdaddy @ 2005-10-16T21:12:00

2005-10-17T01:12:18Z

Seriously, FUCK LIFE!

jugzdaddy @ 2005-10-15T21:44:00

2005-10-16T01:44:29Z

FUCK LIFE!

REVOLUTION IS MY NAME

2005-10-15T06:04:30Z

As the list of names grows, impending revolution lies just beyond the horizon. The Society for the Protection of Avian Migration will rise from the ashes and usher this hapless nation into the age of true Avian Liberation! Down with Global Warming! Down with the power lines and television towers. Hunters beware! S.P.A.M. is a force not to be reckoned with. Judgment day is near... will you fly against the winds of change; or "see the light" and protect the majestic birds of North America?

Which came first, the anus or the mouth?

2005-10-13T02:30:14Z

The SPAM-anifesto

There is a spectre haunting North America. The Society for the Protection of Avian Migration, S.P.A.M., specifically aims to serve and protect the majestic birds that, once a year, undertake an arduous journey across the North American continent. Along the tedious flight, birds encounter perilous obstacles of all shapes and sizes. We, the people of the S.P.A.M. organization, plan to improve the conditions that affect our avian counterparts and ensure the safety of the majestic bird by ending global warming, removing all power lines from North America, and removing all tinted windows from any structure greater than three meters in height. All birds will be safe to fly to and from various climates and locations. We will bring an end to the senseless loss of avian life and usher in a new era of Avian Liberation.

SPAM President- Chris Baker
SPAM Vice President- Molly Phillips
President of North Carolina Chapter- Lauren Papa
Secretary of Defense- Special Agent mudbeat
Director of the Department for Cultural Affairs- Pete Miller
Secretary of Intelligence- Bill Chiles
Event Planner- "Nikki from school"
PUBIC Relations Representative- Dan Dick

piss yellow, piss poor

2005-10-13T00:28:29Z

I say Fuck it all! -and why not, right? That seems to be the trend. With so much going on around us, that attitude serves to protect us all from the issues that really get under our skin. The environment, the government or domestic and foreign affairs? Fuck it.
Pro-choice, Pro-life,Pro football? Fuck it. Who really cares?

Can anyone appreciate the irony of enormous banners with braille on them? No? What if I mentioned that they were banners for Blind Appreciation week or something, and were hung at traffic light level? Come on, that ranks up at the top along with Stevie Wonder singing "You are the apple of my eye." But I digress.

Apathy is choking the life out of this country. We are all sleepwalking to the gallows; and there is a rope for every neck. When we are excited about a 50% voter turnout in what is, arguably, the most pivotal election of our generation, I think it is safe to say that we are pissing democracy away. I cannot help but feel like a pretentious prick when I write stuff like this, but the feeling that it needs to be said until it registers wins out. I haven't voiced an original opinion since I have been writing on this stupid journal. That is hunky-dory because I have formed my opinions by paying some attention and making a little effort to think. I am not saying that to be condescending, but I am not losing too much sleep about who I might offend. Who knows? They might even start paying some attention on their own if they feel threatened enough.

For someone who hates complaining so much, I sure do more than my fair share of it. At least anger and discomfort are signs that I care. One day I might even get up off my couch and do something about it.

jugzdaddy @ 2005-10-10T23:01:00

2005-10-11T03:02:54Z

I think I have a potty-mouth.

WAKE THE FUCK UP, please.

2005-10-11T00:31:02Z

Holy Shit! Let's all take a moment to realize how entirely fucked up we are. By we, I mean people, and by fucked up, I mean a whole mess of shit that is going on and has been going on since humans kept track of the shit they did. Yes, yes by now I am sure you all know that I am most specifically referring to the recent police brutality videos that have surfaced. For those of you who have had your head up your asses for the last couple of days, three policeman are in deep shit after beating THE HELL out of a black man in New Orleans. The guy was practically beaten to death. To clarify, I don't mean beaten severely. I mean beaten to the brink of death, where he would have ceased to exist. The graphic footage is circulating everywhere. This is, in part, because of a news team who was "lucky" enough to be there to capture the footage. The policeman are also in trouble for shoving the producer for the news team. Compared to the beating they inflicted upon the black guy, though, they might as well have been playing patty-cake with the guy.

Alright with that said, I think this raises some rather important issues. For instance, most of us can agree that the corrupt policemen who took part in the savage beating represent only a small minority of policemen in the U.S. We can also agree that we would not attack someone just because they were in uniform. I fear that most of the people that can say that were watching the attack from the comfort of their living rooms. Sitting on their comfortable couch, enjoying the A.C. My point being that the people that will not draw such distinctions are the same people that are the victims of police brutality. People that know someone who has been beaten just as badly by cops. They live with the fear that they too can fall victim to something like this. We all agree that these policemen need to be exposed and relieved of their duty; but by using the footage to instill a greater fear and hatred for policemen we are merely perpetuating the problem.

Fear and hatred are unarguably to blame for these problems. We could get into an argument about human nature, or even the nature of policemen;but I think that humans aren't inherently evil and don't do the things they do because they can't help it. I think that fanning the flames of fear and hatred towards will do little more than creating an enormous backlash from policemen who are just as fearful and hateful. Skating this fine line between justice and perpetuation will not prove to be an easy task. It never has. I think we can all agree that something needs to be done in an effort to protect the civilians and police officers.

I have stated in the past that I want my live-journal to be a place where all opinions can be confronted and heated arguments can ensue, but I defy anyone to justify what those officers did in any way. People that resist arrest put themselves at risk, but when four men relentlessly pummel another well after he is subdued there is no justification. I have stated that fear is to blame for police brutality but after more thought I say that in regards to the "good cops." What I saw on that tape resembled authorized gang violence. I hate to resort to expletives, but FUCK!! That is the only way to express my disgust.

In closing, the harsh beating that the 64 year old Robert Davis took seems to be overkill for public intoxication charges. Also, the charges for resisting arrest with battery seem equally unjustifiable for his "twisting and flailing." Poor police officers all that stress from the hurricanes. Serve and fucking protect regardless of how stressed out you are. Why the fuck do we give people like that guns?